It's been eight long months since my last post.And angry as I am at myself for not keeping true to the promise I had made to myself and stick to a writing schedule,I also cannot overlook the main reason for writing-for me at least:to feel inspired by the subject I choose to write about.To truly believe in it.That was my problem in reality.I did not believe in myself anymore.I felt I had nothing to write about,nothing to contribute. So,inevitably,inspiration abandoned me...or I had become deaf to its call.I felt rather empty,without purpose,just allowing myself to be carried away in the tumultuous wave of my frenzied reality.Allowing myself to just forget my dream of becoming a writer or something that resembles it.
And sometimes you are allowed to get away with it.At least for a while.Something like a time-out.But all of a sudden, somebody comes along that believes in you more than you do,sees qualities in you that you had forgotten about,somebody who is patient and storms your insecurities and frustration.Who is ready to face your self-righeous anger,your shadow-self and cast light on it.
Thanks to the powers that be,this special person ,who is a very dear friend of mine,by showing up at this very moment inspired yet again creativity and passion in me.The will to write and express myself for who I am.To allow my light to just shine and do what I love.
See,belief is such a powerful notion.It creates miracles where everything once seemed impossible.It sets your soul alight with possibilities and manifests dreams that were pinned down to the deepest depths of your unconscious.Befuddled by pessimism and too much comfort,I recognise now that I had become way too comfortable with my daily routine,had accepted defeat.Had compromised with the status quo of things.
Such special people come into your life either,for a brief or longer period of time,to remind you of just that.That you are dying inside.Their presence ignites a spark,stirs life where there was apathy and oblivion.I am immensely thankful for this very special person.This short blog post is in fact a thank you note.Thank you for reminding me of who I am.What I dreamt of.What my goals were.To see the beauty and light in myself that had dimmed.To find in myself the belief in my dream yet again.To assume responsibility of my life.
Once again, thank you.I will forever be grateful for your presence.
Muhammad Ali once said:"It is lack of faith that makes people afraid of meeting challenges,and I believed in myself."So,to follow the advice of this great athlete and human,I will choose from this moment on,no matter what,to always believe.In me.In my abilities.In my dreams.In the infinity and kindness of God and his vast universe. Now I believe.
With love and infinite light,